Alhamdulillah :)

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ-

Pertama-tama,saya ingin mendo'akan dua orang yang cukup saya kagumi yakni 

Alm. mas Kevin Anggana Monda dan Alm. Ustadz Jefry Al Bukhori, semoga 

amal dan ibadah dari almarhum beliau diterima disisi Allah SWT. Amin.

So, are you ready to read my story? Take a seat and some drinks, popcorn, 

chips, muffin or something.. hahha kidding :p Okay lets go..

You remember right about someone I called "Iron man"? not Tony stark or 

Robert Downey Jr. but its someone else, and I think... he dumped me and of course 

I was so be damsel in distress hahha and when I was so down and sad and 

wish I just can fly to malang and kick his *ss UPS kidding. There he came....

a boy with all his promising future, talent, sweet attitude, and all romantic things.

He asked me to go out, I refused him of course, but he was so insist to meet me, 

so I offered him to meet me when Odit and I tried playing(?) basket in 

Central Park ( okay, alun-alun). And here we met him, the first time, 

its kind of wierd things and 2 days after we met, he asked me to be his girlfriend??????

CRAZY! YES! I refused of course, I didn't even know him! And he tried to convinced me 

bla bla bla bla bla and he wanted me to try first. A loong debate... finally I said yes, 

for some girl who never have a boyfriend you should be super duper happy.... 

But for me?

when I'm home I was FRUSTATED! WHAT I'VE DONE! WHAT HAPPENDED 

WITH MY HEAD!! AND MY HEART?

I FEEL GUILTY, STUPID, AND "REGRET" this is kills me!

And 2 days after I said that stupid "yes" I can't stand it anymore, okay I GAVE UP, 

so I told him " Its better if we just be a friend, I don't want to be your girlfriend "

NYESSSS.... its feel like I could breath again, and my heart free from all those 

guilty, regret and sadness feel.

Ya Allah... I was so regret... I won't do that thing anymore, all this time I thought having a 

boyfriend is all I want, but now? I understand everything (of course not all).. 

Allah always have a better plan for me, and this lesson is....

mmmm... I don't know what to say.. except 

"Alhamdulillah...." and "Astaghfirullah...."

I hope Allah SWT will forgive me, all this time I was so stupid and reckless...

Its time to myself realize, and from now? I'll try to be a better person...

And of course, I really thankfull to this 

and

this book make realize that be a muslimah is so hard, but its not impossible... 

and lets keep and locked our heart only for Allah SWT , Nabi Muhammad SAW 

our family, our husband, and our future kids :)

Best regards

Meita,