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3/26/2013

Maafkan..

Diposting oleh Meyta A di 20.13 0 komentar

Hay page ku, cuma kamu yang bisa aku curhati tanpa aku harus sembunyi2.. you know what, nulis pake mata basah itu susah *trust me! Tambah rinitis akut pula. Jujur aja...meski dari kemaren udah siap2 dimarahin.. tetep aja ga siap... mau cerita apa ya.. bingung mulai darimananya.. apa aku mulai cerita dari kata pasrah?? Iya, aku pasrah.. pasrah akan keputusanmu.. mau maafin ato enggak.. itu keputusannya.. aku cuma bisa berharap.. dan pasrah.. :(

thanks to this song.. its represents my heart..

"..Kasih.. harus ku akui..

semua.. salahku padamu..

beri aku kesempatan..

untuk buktikan cinta setia padamu lagi..

maaf.. maafkan diriku..

yang telah membuat.. hatimu terluka..

hanya kau cintaku..

ku tak pernah pikir tuk pergi darimu..

walau hanya sekejap saja..."

maaf.. cuma itu yang bisa aku ucapin.. apapun yang aku omongin ke mas.. tetep saja mas kesel..mau dibilang PHP.. moodbreaker..bikin emosi..pengingkar.. ya emang bener semua.. gapapa kalo mas marah.. tapi aku mohon ngertiin aku, ini mamahku yang datang, akhirnya for the first time orang tuaku dateng jenguk aku di jember mas. Dan kalo mas mikir aku bohong,cari2 alesan ato apalah.. sumpah, aku ga tau kalo mamah bakal ke jember pada tanggal yang aku janjiin ke mas.. dan jujur mas, mas mau dengerin sampai aku selesai jelasin pun aku dah bersyukur banget.. aku fikir saat aku bilang "batal", saat itu pula mas bakal nutup telfonnya and I dont know, maybe you wanna send me to the bottom of the ocean? tapi mas malah masih mau dengerin adek..

thank you... for everything.. I think I'm not deserve you.. met you is.. God, I dont know how to describe it.. I don't know what to do.. did I just lost him? Please... I don't wanna lose him.. I'm so sorry...

3/24/2013

Lied

Diposting oleh Meyta A di 16.15 0 komentar

" are you sick? " you know what, when you asked me this morning all I want to say is "yes,please come here, treat me like your sick princess, treat me like your superclass and the only patient." But I wont say that of course, I knew, tomorrow you've an exam, and you just a super busy man. Why I have to tell you that I'm sick? you already have a lot of things in your mind. Worrying me is the last thing I want you to do. And so what? even I told you that I was sick, there's nothing you can do. We're adult right? and we're medical student, we all know how keep healthy. I mean it's all my fault, I was so reckless, I'm the one who couldn't keep my body health.

But of course you knew that I was hiding the truth, when you called this afternoon.. you caught me. I mean he played the word "sin" -___- of course I don't have a choice but I told him the truth. Actually I already knew what you gonna say, I knew you'll tell me to take a rest, eat well, take the vitamins, and another blablabla.. but it's so different guessing and listening directly from you. Thank you :)

okay, my head feels weird again, I'll just go back to sleep.

I KNEW YOU'LL SAYS...

AND YOUR VOICE COULD...

BUT...

BUT NOT FOR MY FISH -__-

3/21/2013

YES SIR!

Diposting oleh Meyta A di 13.15 0 komentar

Siap bos! Yes Sir! Oke oke! Why Not? Sure. Iya. Kalo kamu minta tolong,bantuan, ato apapun dan kamu dapet jawaban dari salah satu kata2 diatas pasti seneng kan ya.. apalagi kalo kamu udah desprate banget butuh bantuan, rasanya someone yang bisa menyuarakan jawaban "iya" itu semacem dia punya two wings and a circle on her/his head. Dan aku emang tipe " if you could help them, why not? " karena menurut aku, sukses itu bisa berguna buat orang lain, kalo ga guna ya namanya sampah, simple. Dan satu lagi, aku benci banget dapet kata-kata "NO" beserta alesan thethek bengek-nya, berawal dari aku gag suka sama kata "no" aku jadi susah mau bilang "no" ke orang, karena aku tau sebelnya di kasih kata "no".

Tapi kadang aku juga mikir, kalo kamu selalu bilang "yes" untuk orang lain, apa mungkin orang lain bakal bilang yes buat kamu? Nah hloh, iya kan, gag semua orang berfikiran hal yang sama dan berprinsip kayak aku. Dan aku juga tau kalo gag semua hal harus dijawab dengan "ya", "yes" itu cuma buat hal2 yang baik :) Dan kadang kita juga harus bisa teges sama diri sendiri, jangan mengiyakan sesuatu yang bakalan menyusahkan dirimu, apalagi sampe menurunkan kehormatanmu.

Dan kali ini aku memang sadar kalo aku harus bilang "no", gag baik dan rasanya bener2 bertentangan dengan akal sehatku, meski sebagian dari diriku yang mengiyakan, tapi janji dan hati menang kali ini ya, sepertinya aku harus. PHP itu memang hal paling nyebelin di dunia ini, hey, aku tu korban PHP terbanyak sepanjang track rekor anak sekosan. Jadi kalo ga mau di PHPin ya jangan PHPin orang lain. Dan aku tau karma kok, jadi kali ini aku gag bakalan PHP. Semoga ini keputusan terbaik...

3/18/2013

It's All About Journey..

Diposting oleh Meyta A di 18.32 0 komentar

Well, I wont tell about a fairytale or something such an inspirational story like the other girl, hey.. I mean this is my Blog, haha I want to write about all the things in my head, or in my heart or whatever it is, its all up to me :p And this time I want to write about, wait actually I dont know what it is :D

First, I want to say " I'm happy for you sist (I prefer "Mom") :* finnaly you can smile again, wait, not just smile.. I mean she's EXTREMLY HAPPY, in Java its call "Kasmaran" which is mean "Smitten with Love". She said that heart doesn't have to choose, its know where to go, and I think her heart already found someplace, yes, in Yopi Ardhiaswari heart :p I'm really really happy for you two guys.. and after all those "drama things" finally I have a new guy who I have to call "Dad".

She wrote in her blog that "Your past is yours, and my past is mine, but the future is ours" sweeeet, actually Yopi who said that to her hehe. Will someone say that to me? haa kidding. I think I just have to wait a little longer...be patient.

Let me ask you something.. when someone who close to you happy you'll happy too, right? Then if someone smiles at you? You'll give him/her smile, right? So, if someone trust you, thats mean you have to trust him/her back, true? And... how about if someone gives you his/her heart? will you give your heart too? My advice is, don't worry too much, don't think too much, and don't hope too much, but care to much :)

Its all about journey guys, just enjoy the ride and love the ending.

TWIT(LOVE)WAR ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJJMmuFDzRU

PERJALANAN CINTA ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yufuyxHFJDo

* I don't know what's wrong but, I can't add a videos from youtube -______- so just click the link :D

3/13/2013

Masaaa siiiy...

Diposting oleh Meyta A di 14.42 2 komentar

Thats (I mean the title) is something that always you said when we're on the phone.. when you tried to tease me.. and then you laughed.. sometimes I thought its all just a dream.. that now I have someone who always listen when I really really need to be heard and when I need to share..

Whatever you call me rubor? dolor? tumor? color? fungsiolesa? tembem? adek ? sayang? I'll always reply your call with a smile on my face..

For me, you're my iron man... and I'll try to be Pepper :p